I shed no tears, for I will not miss you.

I will go on & not cease to smile.  As far as thinking

about you the way I once did, it's all a daze, now.

There was a time I believed that you were all I'd

need to ease my Soul and allow me to freely breathe.

I began to doubt likelihoods of an "us," for

your Soul has been chain-smoking and asthmatic

twenty-five years running.  I said to you we'll take it slow,

and I meant it.  You were relieved to hear so.

I have a lot of patience to go around.  I said to you take your

time, because I am ahead of you in comfort factors. 

I said again, "Patience I've got."

I sit here at the place I was before {my love-life went awry},

and I'm placated with being the only one around; left alone. 

I will not be able to have "you," as you skepticize

the Truths I forthrightly volunteer.  I went from slow and easy

to a slow burn in short, due to assumptions of me being 

capable of Grand Theft Thought.  But your invalid, unwarranted

postulations carry a sentence of Life without me.  Now you have

some free-time to reconsider what to do with your free-time. 

I spoke of steeling yourself and not re-prioritizing agendas,

and there would be hope for you and your steadfastness, yet.

Someday, your starry light will shine for another fortunate Soul.

You can't ask for permission today for what you did anyway yesterday.

In that fashion, we won't make it.  I won't fake acceptance. 

Because of your mistakes on my integrity's reality, I cannot see the

time where you "catch up with me."  My old Soul's Heart only knows one

definition for "forever."  I won't hold onto it, as your Past determines your Trust.

Go confidently forward on your train into the Night.

Hopefully; someday, we'll both get it right.

I can't say I'm sorry that I won't see you around.

I won't fret you relapsing & drive myself into the ground.

I will forget walking the streets and thinking I need not search again.

I don't have the strength and energy to take away all of your pain.

You subtracted your Faith in my honesty from what was our equation.

I wasn't empowered enough to help you, because I am a village of One,

where you're judging me as part of the nation.