Well, we all have to go some time. It's just that now I'M putting on the pressure. All of this is Feedback from what was sucked in by the "Black Hole" that saves my mind from being compromised, allows me to keep breathing, and my blood flowing. It's located directly next to my heart. Oh, to find a way to prevent this spatial anomaly from collapsing, now that Yule is near...
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Name: Rev. Druid Michael
Location: United States
Birthday: 2/1/1979
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Interests: You might call it Magick. You won't quite hear me calling it so. As an Elementalist, I work with Air, Earth, Fire, Spirit and Water. I am inclined the most with the 5th Element (Spirit). I can be found in what some call "Tel'aran'rhiod," or "The World of Dreams." I can see into the Future, time and again. I'll hear you, whether or not you want me to (should you be trying to be covert in spite of me). I will know the mood of One or many, when you stand (or sit) before me. Fear not, for I will keep your secrets, should something come to me. "Caveat emptor," if you mean to do harm in your secrecy. I'll have NONE of that. I strongly believe in Civility and Diplomacy. If you think that Chivalry is dead, then you're just as deeply buried. Check your hands for Blood, while you're at it. I will work towards The Code's immortality, whatever YOU think...
Expertise: Mutual Understandings: creating them, maintaining them, and restoring them. My Logic & Common Sense will prevail, 100 times out of 101. If it has to do with the number One (1), I'm going to have it dissected in a timely & orderly fashion. I'm all about Mathematics, all Sciences, History (from Ancient to Recent), {the} Mysteries, and Aquarian Behaviours & Idiosyncrasies.
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Saturday, August 07, 2010

My Next Stop

I know to whom to say "I love you".

I have ways to show you that I care.

But there are those out there whose emotions aren't readily shared.

I am not going to sit here and wait for you to be as straight with me as I am with you.

By now, you all should know better, but if you don't want to let your mind open, 

then it is time for us to find separate ways to go.

 

We've lived so long together, but it's long past time to get back to someplace I can call "my World".

If you're going to dive into your greatest frustrations and lie to me,

in the name of "cleaning house", I will not hesitate to leave YOUR World.

Anytime you want to throw it all away and dispose of all things "us", just say the words & I'll go.

Because you know what?  I know better than to take beatings anymore.  I can pack it up and GO!

 

The Future might show we're still united.  

It may show we are divided.

All I know is that we have fought for the last time.

There is nothing you can say that will not prevent us moving apart.

I see my World going on without you, either way it goes down.

 

I have other ways than you to light up my darkness.

I know who is willing to extend a hand of kinship.

I hope you find some way to explain your actions to those who don't understand.

Why should I stick around and give you the chance to convince me everyone sees me as the prick?

Guess what?  I know how they actually feel about me, so be convoluted on your own.

 

Whether or not you regret your decisions someday, and the Truth sets you free:

memories of what has passed between us will tell you that you've mistreated me.

If you want to make amends with me at some point and reunite us all,

all you will have to do is admit to yourself first what you need to express to me.

If you cannot do that before it's too late for us all, the only thing you will ever remember hearing

is the sound of my voice calling out "We are finished here, so stay away from me."

 

There's nothing else to say.  I don't want to fight anymore.  

If this never gets better; as soon as the check is in my hand,

I'll know that it is time for me to go...


Sunday, January 03, 2010

Currently
I Believe in Father Christmas
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"Croire"

Tom said it would be a White Christmas, but the 1st batch would melt before Round 2.
Gabriel said there should be Peace on Earth and Goodwill toward Men, but I extend that to Women and Children, too.
The Great Mother offers Rain to cleanse my dispirited Soul on the Eve of Christmas; disguised as a Green Day where December is coming to an end.

I can’t forget last Christmas Evening, hoping for the Light at the end of the tunnel and more sick than a 1,000-year-old fruitcake.
I placed a few phone calls and spoke a prayer from my hospital bed; with my eyes full of tears, and my Soul wasn’t what was on Fire.

My Brother sold me a Dream of a better Christmas, for this year.
God and Enya gave me an angelic “Oíche Chiúin” to give me Hope.
The Good Bishop of Myra presented me my wishes granted; all of this so I could believe that I’d make it through the Night.
Forever and a day, I will believe in Father Christmas.
I count down the months and days until Saint Nicholas takes flight.
I try to hold on to the Spirit year-round, but sometimes it’s a hard fight.
I see Santa’s message as a means for my Faith to be revived.

I pray for Redemption, this Christmas.
I Hope I can brave the New Year.
All aged pains and sadness can be paved over with the strength to see more clear.
I’m having the best Yuletide season I could hope for.
I’m at Peace in my World, this time of year.
Even though the first eleven were a cacophony of Heaven & Hell, I can smile and say
“I’ve made it. I’m still here.”


Friday, December 25, 2009

Currently Listening
Elton John - Greatest Hits 1976-86
By Elton John
"Someone Saved My Life Tonight"
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"Christmas Rapture"

Christmas rapture -

noun

1. the carrying of a person to another place or sphere of existence; laden with emotions that cover the whole spectrum; occurring during the Christmas season.

(Contributing source: Dictionary.com)

 

When I think of those glittering lights; cold & snowy nights, and me either sleeping

tight or getting the job done right: I know that Christmas is in the aire.  All my

Hopes that Nicholas will be stopping by, as he continues to look past the fact that

I am as awake as he.  Tonight, I sit here experiencing déjà Noël, once more.  I've

been feeling a bit hazy, this season.  My Family is all over this holiday, while I'm

searching for my malfunction's reason.

What will save my Faith tonight, while my Soul goes bare?  I speak to no one in

particular, though I hope the answer is out there.  Grizzly evil had its Hook in me,

in the first third of the year.  Insanity had me bound and gagged, "postal"-bound;

with watering eyes.  Sweet freedom was growing impatient, until the paper finally

turned pink.  I was free to fly.  I was relieved to tell my "Sister" that it was no lie. 

I told Jack, "Okay.  Bye."

I realize the night nears its end, and I'm praying for the plausibility of white dust

over the next 24 hours.  I'm sitting by the Front Desk window; thinking a White

Christmas is a dream.  It's time to shed myself of the haunts that are my yearly

antisocial scenes.  There are 7 days until Father Time strikes up the band, and it

will be "last call" for 2007's sins.  It's working on 6 o'clock in the morning.  Light

of the World!  "Listen to what I say."  I'm ready to go home for the last sleep

before Yuletide traditions ensue, and I hope something saves me in time.  Thank

the Light, music of the season is on the air.

Blessed be the likes of me, a little more than NINE Christmases ago, the gods

great & wide granted me a lifelong wish.  They introduced me to someone who's

saved my Life more than once, since.  His influences have allowed for my

affluences.  We're hooked on each other's entertainment values.  I am bound to

rebound because of Souls the likes of his in my Life.  My Faith in myself and my

fellow Man are free to soar.  It can go past the sky's limit!

I will carry on with my Hopes restored.  I know deep in my heart that I can hold on

to the likelihoods of brighter sides.  I will hang on for another planetary ride. 

Come Christmas Morning, I'll be in my Olds to take me home to my Family. 

"Someone saved my life tonight."  Something saved my Soul tonight.  I'll save my

strength for going out to play amid the falling snow.  2008 is eight midnights

away.  I'll be placing a few calls to say "Happy New Year!"  A dozen times over,

my steadfastness was tried.  My Eternal Gratitude to all whom helped me turn it

around.  "Happy Christmas" will not be a whisper, but an outspoken cheer!  I'm

alive with fresh holiday Spirit.  I've been saved for the next Quantum Leap Year. 

Someone prayed for me a Silent Night...

Someone gave my tunnel's end some light...

I love you all, as you've saved my Life, in time for Christmas Night...


Sunday, January 25, 2009

Closed For Repairs

I don't know about "precious," but I'm definitely going with “fragile.”

I am handling what I can, but I'm not feeling special

where my mind's flashlight's batteries are dead.

My God, I'm afraid of myself and NONE of you!

I fear having something in common with those Duracells.

Where's the Energizer Bunny, when you need him?

I sit here sharing with you my darker hours, but while I know

there are some out there that care very deeply about what happens to me:

I struggle to match how you feel about me.

When will I love me as much as you do, as you seem to believe that I'll pull through?

 

An angel with Golden Wings and another that shall be fitted for them when it's his time:

they know what I'm going through. Yet I feel I make the mortal one suffer,

while he hears of all of mine overnight and over at his house.

There's only so much pain he can take from me; try as he may do.

 

The Creator has plans for me, which is the only reason that I think I'm still drawing breath & strength.

God understands there is a greater void felt by the greater Good, and He thinks I can see them

through their despair and resurrect the Code for their Future.

 

I pray it is you I can trust. I hope you have enough Faith for the both of us.

My heart is broken, but I refuse to turn yours asunder. I hope you withstand me, somehow...

 

Because I am damaged goods. I have had my Spirit broken.

I tried to manage, but no saving words were spoken.

I've been reduced to something so little; I must wonder what I have left to give.


Monday, March 31, 2008

Currently Listening
Total Eclipse of the Heart
By Bonnie Tyler
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"Neither Lunar Nor Solar"

He’s getting torn asunder. 
Time and time again, he expects to never see the light of Day again. 
Once again, his blue eyes are looking mace-sprayed with red. 
Now and again, he feels like the 1000 have left him; never coming back again. 
All over again, he’s terrified and he forces his imagination 
to remember the Hope he gets from your eyes. 
It’s only temporary. 
It’s only a temporary solution. 
Oh, shades! - His heart!
 
Here we go again. 
This time, the medicine makes his dreams fiercely lucid and something wild. 
Hope against hope, may he stop being taunted by his Twin’s shade in Tel’aran’rhiod. 
It was bringing him down, for he only sees the good in the other’s Soul. 
He’s going mad and mad as hell, as he gets turned around. 
“I would never do any of that to you, in real life!”
“Why am I doing any of that to you there?”
 
He could have used you there, that night. 
He needs you now; more than ever. 
You could hug him with all of your might; 
don’t worry about breaking him in half forever. 
How he’d love to believe things will be all right. 
Maybe, you could figure out what’s wrong; together? 
He doesn’t want to find the end of the line. 
The help he needs is somewhere beyond his sight. 
He doesn’t know what to do, and he only sees it getting dark. 
He’s tired of living. He’s tired of dying. 
Won’t someone intervene, in the name of the Light?
 
Forever’s too long to fight. 
Never’s solution isn’t right.
 
Your eyes: Hope and Spirit… 
His eyes: pray for them both… 
 
To turn it around, he knows those dreams misrepresent what’s real.
No matter what, his gratitude is Eternal that you are there and
continue to semi-unconditionally accept him “for all that I am.” 
By his Oath, the feeling is Mutual, and he’ll take even the worst of you he can stand. 
Please, bring him around; you’re his best chance 
to be helped back into the Light and see his challenges through. 
No “permanent solutions to temporary problems.” 
Be steadfast for infinite resolutions to get through finite trials. 
 
Once upon a time, he knew fully a thing they called “Peace.” 
Now, he wonders when it will start. 
What under the Light should he do?
His star is going nova, again. 
Once feeling every part a Knight of the Light; 
now feeling left to the Void and all that is the Dark. 
All has been seen by the Word; there’s nothing left to be said. 
All he can hear in his heart is “turn around, bright eyes.” 
Supernova, goes the star…



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